music...they speak!!!

'Cause I don't wanna fall in love
If you don't wanna try,
But all that I've been thinking of
Is maybe that you might
Baby it looks as though we're running out of words to say
And love's floating away

Just say you love me, just for today
And don't give me time 'cause that's not the same
Want to feel burning flames when you say my name
Want to feel passion flow into my bones
Like blood through my veins

Haaaaaay.... 

Sometimes I think I don't want to fall in love anymore.

:(

Then I'll think about the lonely future ahead

and it makes me sad.

:(

pretty(scared and scarred)twistedchick  

musings.... on a lunchbreak hehe

I was talking with this guy last night until wee hours. (if you call 12midnight as wee hours coz I am usually asleep by 9pm--lola alert!)

I realized that we've been doing that for almost a month now, talking non-stop texts messages/calls in the morning upon waking up... throughout the day... and the last message I usually send or the last call I make is with him. Each day. Each night.

A month. Wow, I didn't even notice the month went by.

We see each other and we laugh like two lunatics. We tease each other until one gets annoyed/frustrated. We talk about plans of traveling together.

Then I realized I'm scared to make plans with him. Or even admit that I care for him... deeply. 

I realized last night while I was talking to him about our goals in life (yes, we're deep like that haha) that I like him. I really really like him.

We talk about serious stuff. I told him some of my secrets (:P) he told me some of his goals. 

The other night we were talking about some serious shit (pardon that one) and I remember telling him that I don't want him to be disappointed of my actions. He didn't immediately replied. So I hang up and fell asleep thinking he was angry and that for sure that was the end of it. I woke up with a message from him saying that we'll cross the bridge when we get there and that he appreciate everything about me. (Major kilig factor! Damn!)

But still I'm scared to fully open myself up to him.

I don't want to lose him as a friend. I have had relationships that I wanted to remain friends with but somehow that didn't work. We're all not talking now and I miss the friendship. Sayang e. And now, with him I don't want to lose that.  If I tell him how I feel and he doesn't feel the same, what now? I bet things will be awkward and I don't want it to be awkward. I'm pretty sure I can handle rejection (I've had some experiences in the past that toughen me up for rejections). But losing the friendship, that I don't want. That I don't want to handle.

I think we are both dancing on that thin invisible line of being friends and being more than that. But neither wants to move past it.

Funny he has creep into being one of a few important people in my life right now. 

Its a scary thing, you know. Pfffft

:(

pretty(lost and scared)twistedchick

 

music... they speak!!!

thought bubble would be:

"Damn you and I look good together! Whatever happened to us?" hahaha

Oh well, enough craziness for one day.

You look so good tonight
It is a little bit annoying how you look
What am I supposed to do?
How can I get over you
when you look like that in that blue sweater?
I swear, gonna lose my shit
If you look this way
I'm gonna lose, I'm gonna lose it
I swear, gonna lose my shit
If you come this way
I'm gonna, I'm gonna
You look like you, you look like you belong
In my arms

Happy start of the work week! :)



prettytwistedchick

music...they speak!!!!

So how do we fight what we can't see?
I don't know but I'm trying
Lets meet tonight in our dreams
Baby why don't you lie down
Time is our only enemy

I realize that there are things in life that you cannot control,

Death, Aging, People Leaving, People Falling in and out of love

The solution is that you make the most of everything

You try to live as much as you can,

Show the one you love that you love him/her while you do and still can

And let the universe take over.

Whatever it is.

Love is coupled with pain.

But when there's no pain and you let love, its the most wonderful thing

You forget everything else..

(am I making sense?) I'm emo today... blaming it on the weather

:) and all these music I've been listening to

prettytwistedchick

musings and whatnots

I re-watched Meet Joe Black. One of my all time favourite movie.

Taught me a lot about life and love (naks! but true)

It didn't hurt that Anthony Hopkins (my favourite actor --one of the many!) is in the movie and the Brad Pitt is such an eye-candy, I could fall in love (hehe!).


The movie had a lot of good lines to think and ponder on.

My favourites are:


>  Love is passion, obsession, 

someone you can't live without. 

I say, fall head over heels

Find someone you can love like crazy 

and who will love you the same way back. 

How do you find him? 

Well, you forget your head, and you listen to your heart. 

And I'm not hearing any heart. 

Cause the truth is, honey, there's no sense living your life 

without this. 

To make the journey and not fall deeply in love,

well, you haven't lived a life at all. 

But you have to try, cause if you haven't tried, 

you haven't lived.

> Love is... Trust, responsibility, taking the weight for your 

choices and feelings, and spending the rest of your life living 

up to them. And above all, not hurting the object of your love. 

Multiply it by infinity, and take it to the depth of forever, and 

you will still have barely a glimpse of what I'm talking about.

*sigh*

Promising to be open...to possibilities.
who knows, lightning could struck *wink*

prettytwistedchick

music...they speak!!!!

Damn this song really hits the heart!!!

One of the few times I cried over a song.

Pfffft hot damn!

I'm jealous of the love

Love that was in here

Gone for someone else to share

But I always thought you'd come back,

tell me all you found was

heartbreak and misery,

It's hard for me to say,

I'm jealous of the way

You're happy without me

prettytwistedchick

whispers to the universe...

haaaaay

I'm... I'm so in love with you
Whatever you want to do
Is all right with me...
'Cause you... make me feel so brand new...
And I... want to spend my life with you...

music...they speak!!!

hola! its one of those days again when I'd rather stay in bed all day and less human interaction as much as possible...

Anyway, this song has been an LSS for two weeks now. Dedicating this to codename #ObamaBoy :D 

Oh, you probably won't remember me
It's probably ancient history
I'm one of the chosen few
Who went ahead and fell for you
I'm out of vogue, I'm out of touch
I fell too fast, I feel too much
I thought that you might have some advice to give
On how to be insensitive

booooooom!

#hugot! haha

prettytwistedchick

whispers to the universe

I miss someone...

:(

music...they speak!!!

here I am going down the road called memory lane...

when I was in high school these are the types of music I listened to. kinda ballad, mellow (I really have no inkling about genres until now! I just love music and I believe that labels do not really matter. My tastes varies from time to time and who am I to put it in a box. :)

so back to high school...I memorised Bread's album by heart, love Angela Boffin, The Carpenters and many others. This song in particular was my favourite (that time) that it was even incorporated on my yearbook. :)

But who's to blame?
For a love that wouldn't bloom
For the hearts that never played in tune
Like a lovely melody that everyone can sing
Take away the words that rhyme, it doesn't mean a thing

I wonder who'll say these lines for me...

But God I miss the girl

And I'd go a thousand times around the world just to be

Closer to her than to me

Dramarama lang... I'm so lazy to go out this afternoon! haaay.